Numb

As I was sitting yesterday, I felt a sensation on my lower left leg. Touching it, I realized that a good deal of that area was still numb from harvesting a vein to be used in my 1992 by-pass surgery. The area of the upper inside of my right lower leg also has an area still numb from my 2015 by-pass surgery. As I felt those areas, I realized many people have numbness not due to surgery. It’s emotional or spiritual. The parable of the sower in Matthew 13 speaks to this. People do not hold onto the word and the enemy snatches it away. Or they stumble when persecution or tribulation arises. The cares of the world, greed, a divided heart, and personal ambition prevents spiritual fruit in that person’s life. But to those open to hear and receive the good word and keep it in their hearts, they will bear and produce fruit that produces much.

We all start out with good intentions. But many become so bogged down by the disappointment and the feeling of being used and incapable of being or making a difference that we shut down. We become shells of who we once thought we’d be. Apathy sets in, and that which was so meaningful to us at one point now becomes an effort to even contemplate. So we allow things to enter in to our conscious life that would have once appalled us. Compromise becomes the order of the day. And it becomes difficult to get through and alert you to the fact you’re on a downward spiral.

The lyrics to Pink Floyd’s “Comfortably Numb” come to mind. You want to say, “Hello? Is there anybody in there?” I understand that you are let down. Where there was once the ability to look at all that was going on, or see more than one viewpoint on things with no perfect lines of division, you now only react with anger. You answer that you’ve gone through something and feel you can’t explain, as I would not understand. As if to say “this is not how I am. I’ve become comfortably numb.” But I see reasons why you’ve become angry and apathetic, but what I don’t understand, is how those reasons have changed your way of thinking and especially your heart. Christ in you, the hope of glory, is fading.

I’m sure we could all list at least a hundred things that have a deleterious effect on why we feel so out of sorts and fed up. We see a constant barrage of 24 hour news telling us how bad things are, and to add to their own addictive mindsets, they run a constant scroll at the bottom of the screen with other so called news of importance. Who would be the first one to delete that redundant scroll? No one. It means money. The phrase Breaking News once caught our attention. Now even in the midst of an ever increasing world of possible violent eruption, these people will use it even for the death of a Hollywood celebrity. Phones, computers and I Pads allow constant access to the mind numbing repetition of the day. We are inundated with fake news, followed by the response of those who try to corroborate it or expose it.  We see so much evil and conniving right in our living rooms that we start to ignore it rather than try to take a stand against it.

We voted for people who should be looking out for our interests but instead lie to us and look for ways to use us. Everything starts to sound like a bad report, or if there is a good report, you are sort of waiting for the other shoe to drop. Where you once tried to look at the bright side, now you are constantly skeptical. Who do you trust? Even the hope you once had in God starts to erode. Those hooks that have entered into your psyche tainted with toxins are allowed to remain as the fear of the pain of removing them is too much to bear. So we start to change.

Our anger at how we felt things/life was supposed to go, make us jaded. We forget the precepts the Lord showed us that we should follow. Now we follow anyone with a promise, no matter how unrealistic or no matter how unscriptural the character of the one delivering the words. You decide to compromise your principles to get what you feel is needed. The ends justify the means. Too many Christians seem to have no problem using Satan’s weapons to further His Kingdom. All will see the folly of that. It will backfire. Only light repels darkness. Many seem to forget that it is our responsibility to keep our heart right with God. It doesn’t matter if religious leaders have become so much a part of the world that it seems many are unrecognizable from those who cause you to feel this way. The Lord told us to always be vigilant. There would be sheep in wolves’ clothing amongst you. But He said regardless of the trouble, to be of good cheer because He has overcome the world.

Many feel like the one referred to in the Pink Floyd song, “When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse, out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look but it was gone. I cannot put my finger on it now. The child is grown. The dream is gone. I have become comfortably numb.” We think things have passed us by. The pain and hurt endured has irreparably scarred us. Things just seem out of focus and beyond our grasp. We become isolated from that which is our only refuge. We cannot allow circumstances to afflict us to such a degree that we are useless or feel life is stacked against us. We have to stand and fight. Do not care if you upset the powers that be in this country or in the church. If you are in Him, what you say will be reflected in your discourse. But that’s the key. You need to be grounded in His truth.

It says in Psalm 37 to trust in the Lord. To commit your ways to Him. In Psalm 42 the psalmist says, “Why are you so downcast, O my soul? Why are you so disquieted within me?” Yet he answers himself and says, “Hope in God. For I shall yet praise Him. The help of my countenance and my God.” Trust in God. Walk in His love and watch how things can change. His grace is even now being poured out in unprecedented amounts. Grab hold of it. Boldly approach the throne of grace and expect to obtain mercy and find grace to help in your time of need. (Hebrews 4:16) Blessings.

2 thoughts on “Numb

  1. Two excellent articles that are biblical poignant. The concept of Christians thinking the end justifies the means–aka good justifies evil–is a common absurdity. There is much that can be said on the entrapment of using Satan’s methods to “accomplish” (or so one thinks) God’s goals. “Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness; who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter! Woe!” (Isa 5:20-21)

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